...so did I. I was heading for bed when another huge wave of emotion suddenly rose up in me. I couldn't contain it and Marion & I then spent a very tearful half hour clinging to each other. This morning I again feel super depressed, my eyes sore from the tears. My heart feeling like a lump of lead pinning my chest to the bed, my limbs drained of the strength to move, my mind void of the capacity to override the lethargy.
It's so very very quiet here that you can hear your own heart beating and wonder how it continues to do so when every beat brings so much pain and grief.
Time to do another bike ride, if only I can find the strength to even get out of bed.
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Rob, get on that bike!!!! Don't do too much, do enough. Watch your heart; stress, tablets and fizzy pop don't mix with overly strenuous exercise. Please be careful.
ReplyDeletePlease can you post your Garmin output again... I want to check up on you!!!
Rob and Marion,
ReplyDeleteHang on... We denken dagelijks aan jullie.
Kees en Bianca
(REM, Everybody hurts)
When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on
Don't let yourself go, 'cause everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes
Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go, (hold on)
When you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on
'Cause everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone
If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on
Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
Everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
Everybody hurts. You are not alone
Oh Rob, I'm so sorry to hear you're both in such pain.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you constantly. Still wishing there was something constructive to do or say. Hang onto each other and support each other and
eventually you will appreciate the quiet and find some peace.
Many hugs to all of you, much love
Linda xx
Keep going Rob and Marion, Nattie needs you both as we all do. You have been on a twelve month burn-out, it will take far longer than this to come to terms with the future. Love Dad.
ReplyDeleteYou did exactly as you needed to do. You hurt, so you cry and that is all right. It is a release of all that is bottled inside you. Do not be harsh on yourself when it comes. Rest when you can, exercise when you feel up to it.
ReplyDeleteHugs,
Debbie