I still cannot begin to understand how a whole living person, a child so full of life, can be turned into merely a photo and an inadequate collection of vague memories. It doesn't make any kind of sense. It's not enough, the imprint that Kay has left behind. It's not substantial enough, not enough to hold on to.
My need to hold her has never been greater, nor has my disbelief in the course that our lives have taken.
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Lieve Rob,
ReplyDeleteOok al reageer ik niet meer zo trouw op dit blog. Er gaat geen dag voorbij dat ik niet aan jullie denk of het blog niet lees. Woorden schieten me dan vaak te kort om een reactie op je blog te plaatsen. Ik leef met jullie mee. Heel veel sterkte en een dikke knuffel voor jullie allemaal.
Liefs Bettine
Sharing your pain, feeling utterly incapable of helping. Please know we're here to listen, to read and share. And as you said in your title this time, it's 'not enough' to bring Kay back to you, but Rob, there are a lot of us here with you.
ReplyDeleteSending you massive hugs and lots of love. Linda xx
Holding her photo in my hand now and my sentiments are the same. But don't underestimate the imprint she has made on everyone's life and the example she set us all. A beautiful child both inside and out.
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts are with you all
Sharon x
To try to make sense of everything is human. It is more deeply felt when your character is such, that logic and common sense must be appllied to all situations. These attributes will make you a great pilot; able to deal with aircraft failures and radically changing weather, but they leave you woefully unable to deal with emotions brought about by seemingly inexpliclble circumstances that involve physical loss or a betrayal or trust. Your faith is shaken and one wonders if it will ever really return as before. No matter, you will return to you true nature and the practical 'soldier' in you (the character of you I saw in Kay) will return and as all good soldiers do, you will grit your teeth and steel yourself for another assault on life. I have no doubt you will succeed. Your strength will come from your love and loyalty to your 'platoon'. Their support is your ammunition! Keep going Rob.
ReplyDeleteYou are so right Rob. There is no other way to put it. You do all the right things for your child to keep them safe and healthy......and then they are gone. We, their parents should go before them and we cry in outrage! Empty arms, the yearning to touch our children again, to hear their laughter.
ReplyDeleteThank you for putting into words what I also feel in my heart for my son.
Your friend,
Debbie
Beste Rob,
ReplyDeleteDe foto van Kay staat bij ons op een kast met daarnaast een kaarsje. Mijn gedachten zijn bij jullie. Liefs Bettine