Just starting the first round of treatment for skin cancer, the first bead on my "kanjer ketting", if they did it for adults, and hoping that two beads will be the end of the story. I'll have to count how many beads Kay got, must be hundreds. But the thought itself is very sobering, everything that I've been through, that I'm going through now is nothing compared to what Kay went through. And she was always so strong.
I remember watching her during the radiotherapy. She was scared stiff by the idea, she really did not want to go into that room and be gamma-rayed. But she did it with simple raw strength of character, no fuss, no bother.
What a child. I miss her so very much. Better stop now or I'm going to be in tears in this hospital waiting room.
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The real definition of courage is when we step into the fray knowing the pain it will bring us... because it is the right thing to do. Kay did that over and over again. Her beads are her medals of valour. Your own medals are your children. Ali is thinking of you all always.
ReplyDeleteKay has been on my thoughts all night. Happy memories just feeling her presence and the joy she brought to both of us. We know where she got her strength from because we have witnessed it, over all these years in her Daddy. Keep strong dear son and follow her example. Lots of love Mum.
ReplyDeleteOh Rob, nothing to say except 'Hugs and love' to you and everyone.
ReplyDeleteLinda xx
Dear Rob and Marion,
ReplyDeleteKay is not old news for me to.
She's and so are you, often on my mind.
Still thinking of you and feeling for you.
Good night and meet Kay in your dreams. Ciel
Wow, it must be something to remember Kay's courage as you face your own treatment. I hope she'll be by your side as you earn your two (fingers crossed it's only two) metaphorical beads
ReplyDeleteKay was inderdaad heel sterk. Ik denk vaak aan haar en aan jullie; soms kan ik weer niet geloven dat ze weg is. Veel succes met je behandelingen, ik weet zeker dat jij net zo sterk zult zijn als Kay.
ReplyDeleteJudith
Hi Rob
ReplyDeleteJust letting you know I'm still following your blog and hope that your treatment is going well. Keep going, I'm rooting for you!
Lieve Rob
ReplyDeleteIk lees jouw leven en besef dat jij getraumatiseerd moet zijn. Dit is onnatuurlijk en niet menselijk. En dan bij de laatste berichten lees ik ook nog dat jij nu kanker hebt.
Vannacht kon ik niet slapen. De weblog heeft mij erg aangegrepen en de foto's van Kay staan op mijn netvlies gegrift. Maar ook jullie pijn en het gevecht om elke dag weer door te komen. Ik ken jullie niet maar jullie lijden is zo duidelijk. Zoek hulp. Niet om er overheen te komen maar om er doorheen te komen.
Sterkte en veel liefs.